When Dreams are Calling by Carol Vorvain

Author:Carol Vorvain [Vorvain, Carol]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Carol Vorvain
Published: 2014-05-16T00:00:00+00:00

“You’re an optimist,” my friend said to me one day when I told her about how much I still loved my life in Canada.

“I’m a realistic, my dear. Just wearing a different set of glasses than yours.”

“Yes, yes, sure,” she mocked me. Then, with sorrow in her voice, she continued: “If only you’d have my life...”

“And if only you’d have mine,” I said gently, giving her a pat on her back, trying to shake off whatever burdens she was carrying.

“No, thank you.”

“You see? Your life is as bad as you think it is, no more and no less.”

“How can you still love your life in Canada? I cannot understand. After all, it brought you more tears than laughter, more frustration than contentment, and more disappointment than fulfillment. Nothing to love, except for a guy or two.”

“True, but it gave me unfettered and sole ownership over my decisions. It gave me freedom. That’s not something one can easily forget.”

And then, I told her, all the reasons for which I loved Canada: the good, the bad, and yes, the ugly ones too.

“I love Canada for so many reasons. Some I will remember, some I will forget, while others I will never know. Because true love can never be explained and dissected, bit by bit. True love comes and goes as it pleases. You cannot hide its flame, same as you cannot hide its absence.

It taught me how to be a bitch by choice, not by force; to forgive others’ actions, but never forget their nature; to be mentally resilient and obstinately follow my dreams; to believe in myself when no one else seems to be overly excited to do the job, to never let go of my cynical humor even when, or especially when, it is pointed out at myself; to take a back seat each time my life spins off into drama, enjoy the show and grab the leading role only when spring is in the air and love is all around.

I learned that, same as wisdom cannot be bestowed upon me while comfortably sitting in the middle of my own bed indulging myself in reading philosophy books or judging others, patience does not mean to sit around, decry your fate, and pray for a change to happen.

In the shadows of being no one, I found true freedom and the courage to spread my wings and make my own mistakes.

It cured one of my deepest fears, the fear of being alone. In solitude, I have learned to love my own company and turn to nature for hope, perspective, and strength.

Simply put, it taught me how to survive the biggest roller coaster ever: life.

Canada is the place where I learned everything I know about myself: my limits, my shortcomings, my strengths. And I did all that by being open to everything people brought my way: disappointment or gratitude, laughter or sorrow, light or darkness.

And this is why,” I shouted, “I love Canada! J’aime le Canada! My training ground, my dream, my home away from home! But love and belonging are two different things.

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